Chapter 12
The Real Index
By the third draft Meera had stopped calling it the Rao file. Avinash Deshpande had told her on the phone that a report with a dead man's name on the front got read as a death and filed as a death, and that if she wanted anyone in Mantralaya to turn past page two she should call it something dull. So the cover sheet now said Observations on Allocation Irregularities, Panvel Provision Zone, February 2036, and underneath, in smaller type, her name and her old rank, which she was not strictly entitled to use.
She wrote it at the kitchen table in Vashi because the flat had no other table. Sudhir's chair stood at the far end with the March newspapers stacked on it. The cooker clock said 11.52. The ceiling fan turned on its lowest setting, and every few seconds a page lifted at one corner and settled again under the calculator she was using as a paperweight.
Forty-one pages. Thirty-eight of them had been easy. Dates, positions, the twenty-three entries in four categories, the odds she had worked out on the bus and checked twice since: 3.065 × 10⁻¹³. Salim's ledgers transcribed into columns, with Salim's own translations initialled in the margin in a hand that still shook from the burn. The cleaning unit paused for nineteen minutes and five seconds. Four flats, two families, one marriage certificate from 2019. She had written reports like that for twenty-six years. You put the numbers in order and let the order do the talking.
Page thirty-nine was where Deshpande had asked for something more.
'A conclusion, Meera. A paragraph. The Additional Chief Secretary will read the first page and the last page. Give him something for the last page.'
'The numbers are the conclusion.'
'He doesn't read numbers. That's why he has us.'
She had pointed out that he did not have her. He had laughed and rung off.
She had tried it four ways. The first version blamed the consortium, which was accurate and would be read as a pensioner's grudge. The second blamed Arjun Malhotra, which was also accurate and let everyone else go home. The third ran to two pages and sounded like Ishaan explaining chairs. She tore that one in half and then, because it was her own handwriting and she could not stand to see it lying there, in quarters.
The fourth version she wrote at 12.10 a.m. and did not change.
In late 2025 a businessman in America predicted that within ten or twenty years work would become optional and money would cease to matter. On the evidence of the Panvel Provision Zone he was correct about prices. Food, clothing, household goods, standard housing and basic clinic care are produced by machine and distributed at no charge to approximately 240,000 residents, many of whom previously went without. This officer observed this herself and does not dispute it.
He was not correct about people. Whatever machines cannot produce has remained scarce: the hours of human doctors, places in the one human-taught school, sea-facing land, electricity above the daily quota. Access to these has been rationed by queue. Queue position has therefore acquired a price, and has been bought and sold for rupees, gold and future obligations since at least April 2033. Money has not disappeared from the zone. It has moved to wherever the shortage is.
The official Scarcity Index measures the availability of what is not scarce. It has accordingly read 0.00 for four years and three months.
She read it aloud to the fan. It sounded like a woman who had been right all along, and that was the trouble, because she had not been. She had walked into Depot 6 on the twelfth of February expecting to find the lie in the pressure cookers, and there had been no lie in the pressure cookers. The woman in the maroon nightie had got her five litres in forty-one seconds. Farhan's mother ate twice a day. Meera had spent the first week of the case sneering at a thing that worked, and she had nearly missed the part that did not because she was so busy looking for the trick.
She took a fresh sheet and copied out the paragraph again with one sentence added after the first: This officer initially assumed otherwise and was mistaken.
Then she put the pen down, and the calculator back on the pile, and went to bed.
Kavita Menon resigned on the sixth of March, a Friday, at four in the afternoon, which Meera knew was chosen so that the Saturday papers would carry it under the cricket.
She saw it on the screen above the ticket window at Vashi bus depot while she was waiting for the 4.35. No sound. A clip of Kavita at a lectern in the glass building, her hair as neat as it had been the day she offered Meera tea, reading from a single sheet. The ticker underneath ran her statement in English and Marathi, slowly enough to read twice.
The Panvel Provision Zone has fed, clothed and housed nearly a quarter of a million people for five years. That achievement is real and I remain proud of it. I accept that our measurement of the zone's performance was incomplete, and that I was slow to act on concerns raised within my own organisation. I am stepping down so that the work can continue.
Concerns raised within my own organisation. Meera turned it over. Dev Rao had raised them inside a bathroom wall. Rekha Gaikwad had raised them at a police post and got her photocopies back in four days.
A man beside her in a security guard's uniform watched the clip to the end and said, to nobody, 'She's going to Geneva. Some UN thing. My brother-in-law drives for the consortium.'
'Is she.'
'Two lakh a month, he says. Dollars, not rupees.' He shook his head. 'Somebody always lands soft.'
Meera did not tell him that she had read Kavita's file and that the Geneva post was an advisory panel which paid nothing at all, only expenses. It did not seem to matter which of them was wrong about the money. Kavita would be on the panel either way. She would sit in a room by a lake and explain to people from other countries how to feed a city, and she would be mostly right, and she would believe it, and Meera found she could not work up the contempt she had been saving.
The 4.35 came at 4.41. She sat by the window and watched the Index on the depot screen at Sanpada go by. Still 0.00. The consortium had not changed it on the day of the resignation. They were waiting to see what they could get away with.
Farhan rang on the eleventh at 7.15 in the morning. A month to the day, almost to the hour, from the call that had started it. She did not mention this, and neither did he.
'They want to publish a revised methodology,' he said. 'Not a number. A methodology. A forty-page document about how a number might one day be calculated.'
'That's what I'd do.'
'You're not helping.'
'I'm not on the case. I've got a letter that says so.'
She could hear traffic behind him, and a bus braking, and somebody shouting about a parcel. He was outside the zone, then. Probably at the Panvel court, where the chargesheet was due.
'I've had the State Statistics Office run it,' he said. 'Off the record. A woman there called Joshi, very old, very rude, she used to do ration-card audits in the nineties. I gave her the revision logs and Salim's tables and your twenty-three entries. She built the Index the way it says it's built in the original 2031 paper, except she counted the four categories they left out.'
'And?'
'Point three one.'
Meera sat down on Sudhir's chair, on top of the newspapers. Point three one. On the original scale, she worked out, that meant roughly three residents in ten who needed something the machines could not make had waited longer for it than the system said they would, or not got it at all. She did not need the calculator for that.
'They won't publish it,' she said.
'They will,' Farhan said. 'I've attached Mrs Joshi's calculation to the chargesheet as Annexure F. It goes in at eleven. Once it's filed it's a court record, and once it's a court record any journalist in Maharashtra can pay ten rupees for a certified copy. The consortium can publish it themselves this week and say they found it, or a newspaper can publish it next week and say they hid it.'
There was a pause in which she could hear him being pleased with himself and trying not to be.
'Inspector Bhosale know about this?'
'He signed the forwarding note. He didn't read it.' Another pause. 'Madam, I want to ask you something. When we started. You thought I was a fool.'
'Yes.'
'Was I?'
She looked at the fan. It had a crack in one blade that Sudhir had meant to fix in 2029.
'You thought the zone saved your family,' she said. 'It did. You were right about that and I was wrong. You were wrong about the rest, and so was the zone, and you're the one who's fixing it. I don't know what that makes you. Not a fool.'
He said nothing for long enough that she thought the line had dropped. Then he said, 'Eleven o'clock,' and rang off.
The consortium published 0.31 on the fourteenth, in a press release that described it as the product of an internal review. The depot screens changed at midnight. Meera did not go to look. Tanmay sent her a photograph at 12.03 a.m. of the screen outside Block H, the new number in the same green as the old one, and underneath it, in the same message, a question about whether his power supply had arrived yet. It had. It was in a box by her door, and had been for nine days.
Rekha Gaikwad lived on the fourth floor of a resettlement block in Sector 11 with a window that looked straight into the window of the block opposite, close enough that Meera could see a calendar on a stranger's wall. 2036. A picture of Siddhivinayak.
Rekha had made tea before Meera arrived. It was already in two cups on the table, already going cold, which Meera took to mean that she had not been sure Meera would come and had decided to be ready anyway.
On the table, also, was an envelope. Thick cream paper, the consortium's blue logo in the corner, her name typed and the flat number written by hand. The flap was intact. A cup ring had dried on one corner.
'It came on Tuesday,' Rekha said. 'Registered. I had to sign.'
'Do you know what it says?'
'Mrs Pawar on the second floor opened hers. Her father was in the orthopaedic queue. Two pages. "Deeply regret." "Systemic shortcomings." There's an offer of priority care for any surviving family member for five years.' Rekha turned her cup round once on the table. 'Priority. That's the word they used.'
Meera did not say anything to that. There was nothing she could say that the word did not already say.
'The Sub-Inspector came,' Rekha said. 'Shaikh. He brought my photocopies back. All of them, in a new file, with a receipt. He said they'd been entered as evidence in a murder case and he'd made his own copies.' She almost smiled. 'He apologised for the police post. Properly, standing up. He's very tall when he stands up.'
'He is.'
'I liked that better than this.' She touched the envelope with one finger, the way you test whether an iron is hot. 'He was there. He'd read them.'
Meera drank her tea. It was cold and very sweet. Through the window the stranger opposite came into the room and took the calendar off the wall and turned it to March and put it back.
'Will you open it?' Meera said.
'Sanjay was number three,' Rekha said. 'On the morning he died. I still have the photograph. Three.' She put the envelope under the sugar tin, square to the edge of the table. 'I'll keep it. I don't need to read it.'
When Meera left at 5.20 the envelope was still under the tin, and Rekha was marking exercise books at the same table, a red pen in her hand, the cup ring slowly fading on the cream paper.
Ishaan came to dinner on the twentieth, a Friday, and he came in an autorickshaw from Panvel, which cost him ₹640 because the driver had to wait while he got something out of the back.
Meera heard the knock and opened the door and found her son standing on the landing with a chair.
It was teak, dark, oiled, with a curved back made of three slats and arms that ended in a shape like the end of a rolled newspaper. The seat was woven cane. She could smell the oil from the door.
'Mind the frame,' Ishaan said, and carried it past her and set it down at the empty end of the kitchen table, where Sudhir's chair had been. He had moved Sudhir's chair to the window. He did this without asking, and without looking at her, and she let him.
They ate dal and rice and a cabbage sabzi she had made too salty. He told her he had two new commissions from Bandra and that Mrs Bhatia in Sagar Darshan had cancelled hers, because her flat was one of the nine occupied ones and her husband's cousin had been called in for questioning and she had decided she did not want anything delivered to the building. He thought this was funny. He thought most things were funny, Meera had noticed, when they were about people who had money.
He asked about Salim. She told him Salim was still in the Ghansoli lodge, under Farhan's eye, and complaining that the lodge tea was made with powdered milk, and that he had asked for, and been given, a copy of the 0.31 press release, which he had annotated in Urdu shorthand and returned to Farhan with a note saying the real figure was higher.
'Is it?' Ishaan said.
'Probably.'
Afterwards he washed the plates without being asked, which was new, and she sat in the teak chair because there was nowhere else to sit while he was at the sink. It held her. She could not think of a better way of putting it, and she was glad she did not have to write it in a report. Her back did not hurt. Her feet reached the floor. The arms were exactly where her arms were.
'You measured me,' she said.
'In February. When you carried the chair to Kharghar. I watched how you held it.' He dried a plate. 'Your left shoulder's lower than your right.'
'Since 2004.'
'I know. Bhendi Bazaar. You told me about it when I was six.'
She had forgotten telling him. She ran her hand along the arm. The grain went with her palm, never against it, and she supposed that was also something he had done on purpose.
She got up and went to the cupboard above the fridge and took down the steel tin where she kept cash, because she was the last person in Vashi who still did, and counted out notes on the counter. The pension came in on the first. There was ₹38,000 in the tin. She counted it twice, the way she counted everything, and then she took out the calculator and stood looking at it.
'Don't,' Ishaan said.
'Sixty thousand. I can give you thirty-eight now and the rest on the first of April.'
'It's not for sale.'
'Everything you make is for sale. You told me so. Machines made things cheap, people made—'
'I know what I told you.' He hung the tea towel on the oven door, folded in half, the way she did it, the way he must have learned to do it in this kitchen. 'If you pay for it, it's a chair you bought. I didn't make you a chair you bought.'
She stood with the notes in her hand. Thirty-eight thousand rupees. Seventy-six notes. A tenth of what had been in the bag.
'Then what is it?' she said.
He shrugged, and picked up his phone to call an auto, and did not answer, and she understood that he did not have a word for it either and was not going to pretend.
When he had gone she put the notes back in the tin and the tin back above the fridge, and sat down in the chair again, and switched off the calculator, which was still showing 60,000.
Pallavi Rao came down from Hyderabad on the twenty-sixth for the second hearing, and Meera met her at the property room of the Panvel police station at 10.30 in the morning, because Farhan had asked her to and because there was a form that needed two signatures and Pallavi did not want the second one to be a stranger's.
The clerk was a heavy man with a fan aimed directly at his face. He brought the items out one at a time and laid them on the counter and ticked them on a printed list.
Three grey shirts, folded. One pair of rubber sandals. One steel plate, slightly bent at the rim where Meera had used it on a bathroom tile. One steel tumbler. One spoon. One pencil stub, sharpened with a knife.
The notebook was not there. The notebook was Exhibit 4 and would stay in the court's custody until the trial was over, which Farhan thought would be 2038. The ₹3,80,000 would not come back at all. It had been deposited with the court treasury on the eighteenth in 760 notes, in their two colours of rubber band, and it would go wherever money went when no one could prove it belonged to anyone.
The clerk brought the last item and put it on the counter.
The green canvas bag. Empty. Folded once along the middle, the way bags fold when they have been full for a long time and are suddenly not. Someone in the property room had brushed it down; it was cleaner than it had been on the bonnet of Farhan's jeep. The buckle was brass and had gone dull. On the inside of the flap, in faded laundry marker, there were initials Meera had looked at a dozen times and never managed to read.
'Item seven,' the clerk said. 'One bag, canvas, green. Recovered beside deceased.'
Pallavi looked at it for a long time.
'This wasn't his,' she said.
'No,' Meera said.
'The Sub-Inspector told me. The other man brought it. To give him.' She touched the buckle. 'And Dev said no.'
'Yes.'
'So why are you giving it to me?'
'It was found with him,' Meera said. 'That's how the form works. Anything recovered beside the deceased goes to the next of kin unless it's evidence. The money is evidence. The bag isn't.'
The clerk turned the list round and pushed it across with a pen. Pallavi signed. Meera signed underneath, as witness, with her old rank, and the clerk did not look at it.
Pallavi put the shirts and the sandals and the plate and the tumbler and the spoon into a cloth bag she had brought from Hyderabad. She put the pencil stub into her handbag, separately, in the zipped pocket. Then she picked up the green canvas bag by its strap and held it a little away from her body, as if it were wet.
Outside, the sun was already hard on the station yard. A drone went over towards the zone carrying something in a white crate. Across the road, on the screen above the bus shelter, the Index said 0.31.
Pallavi stood at the top of the steps with the empty bag hanging from her hand and looked at Meera.
'What am I supposed to do with it?' she said.